Friday, April 9, 2010
1). I had an interesting week trying to meditate. I have been fairly successful during my workout sessions where i focus on my breathing and thoughts. But this week my mind kept shifting to a guy there. He is my trainer. I had an experience during the week that brought him into my thoughts, and then into my dream. So I have to determined why I felt such a connection to him. He is a great motivator and support person when I am at the fitness center. Then later this week my coworkers and I have been a little at odds with each other. The last thing I could think of was lovingkindness. But I am trying to bring my thoughts back into a state of peace and love. I am trying to practice my breathing several times when I am at work because those are the most testing and negative times. And when I practiced the healing meditation my healer was named Jesus, He is the only inner healer that I know. As I review this past week my insight tells me that I have fallen short of making these practices an important part of my dailly routine. I believe I need a lot more practice, I don't feel like I was very succcessful this week as I have been in the past. What I feel to foster wellness is to practice and learn to perform the subtle mind and lovingkindness exercises.
2). My example of "leading another where one has not gone himself" is existing in my daily life right now. My goal is to help people heal and develop in integral health. I believe the physical body needs to be guided into a balance of proper nutrition and exercise. I have been working on losing weight and a life style of healthy eating and the results are poor. I have a personal duty to utilize the teachings that I will be instilling upon others. From my struggles I have an increased level of compassion and caring for others. I believe my growth will be from a daily life of practicing livingkindness, subtle mind and deligent prayer to God.